Saturday, May 16, 2009

First of all, as this is my inaugural blog post on my new website, I would like to welcome myself back; the real me.  Angst.  Not giving a fuck, unless you’ve earned it, moving from good times to good times as the mood directs me.  That being said, I’m blogging to set up the list; a ladder if you will.  These are the things that I am going to accomplish in the coming year.  Ideally, these would be attained prior to next summer. 

1) A new car.  I love Vinny, don’t get me wrong.  He’s a great little guy with an old body and a young heart.  He’s just not the cool black convertible that I’ve yearned for.  Specifically, this baby.   She will be mine.  I haven’t decided what her name will be, I may have to wait till I actually get her to feel her out first, and I am accepting ideas.

2) My Angst tattoo.  I’m getting it damnit and I don’t give a fuck about your opinion.  This step is loaded however as I must reach my body composition goal.  The short way to put it, without spouting a bunch of numbers ya’ll wouldn’t understand, is to get down to 195 lbs.  I’m not “fat” by any stretch of the imagination, but this is not the body I want.  I got half way there, and let other bullshit things get in my way.  Time to finish the home stretch.  Though I put this as step 2, it will most likely be the last one accomplished sometime next March of April.  I’m also accepting design ideas.  I want something in old-english or medieval font.  Something similar to this, but not as cluttered as this seems.

3)  A tan.  Need I say more?  Ordinarily I could be mistaken for a non-steroid infused Casper the Friendly Ghost.  It’s time to change that.  If I have to get 2nd degree burns, so be it.

5)  I want to sing in front of people and knock it out of the park.  It will scare the shit out of me.  I’ve got the pipes to hold my own, I’m not great, I hesitate to even say good, but I think with enough charisma and the right song this shouldn’t be impossible.  I’m a showman.  It’s time I proved it.

4)  I want to love life again.  I’m not quite there.  I’m excited about the potential, but I’m not there yet.  This is the last thing that I will achieve on this small ladder.  At first glance, this ladder seems superficial and small.  But is it not the small things in life that make it great?  These things are also things that really let ME be ME.  I’ve either been repressing them or discouraged about these aspects so that I’ve just not let them out.  It’s time for that change.  In 1 year from today, I want to look around at my life, smile and say, “Damn.  Is this great or what?” 

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